I'm feeling a little bit blah today

Not anything big, just a bunch of little things adding up.
My prayer life is becoming so repetitive. I'm always asking for the same thing. I know the asking and seeking and knocking in Matthew 6:33 is not a one time thing, but sometimes it's like, "Come ON already!" That coupled with the feeling that my whole relationship with God isn't normal...not bad, just different than everyone I know...and the fact that I have no time to sleep...

I'm not a junkie

You Are a Hype White Leather Shoulder Bag

You've got that whole retro-chic, girly thing going on It's like you're right out of Breakfast at Tiffany's You long for the days when all girls wore dresses and had pretty purses But for now, you'll settle for being the foxiest girl in town

What Handbag Are You?

Break me

God is really trying to break a misconception that I have: the term "God's way" or "God's will" doesn't always have to imply a certain method. I think sometimes the idea is more important than the way you go about it.

(I haven't really spent much time thinking about how to word this...hopefully it makes sense)

Granted, there are certain things that God says we absolutely should not do. But as long as we're in the circle of His moral will, I think the process is probably up to us.

Example: (hopefully this will make more sense, since this is what sparked the thought process in the first place.)
A good friend of mine...who I'm hoping won't mind that I'm stealing his words...said something that I thought was AMAZING:
"God's view of dating, is not what "selfish I" can get, but how can I die to self and what I can give to make somebody else happier."

*pause for reaction*

There's really nothing to add.

It's not about labels, traditional dating or courtship or whatever, it's about your heart.

Take your pick...

I'm so done with the [insert feeling HERE] deal.

Here's my list:
spiteful... anxious... offended... joyless... grudging... selfish... suspicious... dejected... annoyed... mopey... envious... ungrateful... resentful... questioning... irritable... vengeful... unworthy... possessive... over-analytical... bitter... snobbish... jealous... self-centered... envious... rejected... disappointed... sulky... angry.

SATC Application 2

The most important thing in life is your family.
There are days you love them,
and others you don't.
But, in the end,
they're the people you always come home to.
Sometimes it's the family you're born into,
and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself.

I'm so thankful for the friends God has given me.
I love you all!

SATC Application

He is my friend.
He's my family.
My insides.
He will be fine because he HAS to be fine.
That's how important he is to me.

That's what I keep telling God.
It's funny, you wait for so long for something to happen, and then when the day comes, all you want is for it to be over. 5 minutes feels like 5 years. Longest day EVER.

UPDATE: God gave me exactly what I wanted. Of course, it wasn't just me...I can't even imagine how many people were praying for the same thing. He's really teaching me how valuable it is to pray for others...how much joy it can bring and how lucky we are to be able to.

The weather was beautiful...perfect day for a miracle.

This is me being LESS critical.

From the book Anticipatience

One evening in our single ladies Bible study, we talked about the issue of faith. I asked each woman to think about what she would want to be included in the book of Hebrews. The Hebrews 11 people were real people, ordinary people. What made them extraordinary was their faith, and their willingness to step out and face life's challenges, no matter what the circumstances were. That evening in our Bible study, we each completed the following sentence:
"By faith, (their name) ________________"
I've kept my faith statement in the front of my journal ever since. I identified it as Sharon 11:1:
"By faith, Sharon, though she was tested by fire, water, and sometimes fog, believed (really believed) that God would be her Jehovah-Jireh and provide her with His appointed one - a husband. A husband who would be her protector, her leader, her friend. By faith, when it looked impossible, Sharon held on, and when the "expected end" came, she was truly able to embrace the promise God had given her."

The thing that she would want to be remembered for most is believing that God would bring her a husband???
I would want to be remembered for believing that God would make my life extraordinary, that He would give me opportunities that I can't even begin to imagine, and use me in ways I never thought possible.
Do I want someone to share the journey with?
Almost more than I want the journey itself.
Almost.

(From the book again)
A Christian book I read recently advocated the idea that any desire a single woman has for intimacy with a man is simply a displaced desire for intimacy with God (an idea I find particularly absurd in the light that God designed marriage to bein with).

Ok, I realize the demographic this book is written for, but you can never speak in absolutes (little joke there). I agree that the desire to be married isn't a sign that you need to be closer to God, but you have to look at the reasons behind the desire.
Do you want love?
Unconditional acceptance?
Someone you can always run to?
Are those the top reasons you want to be married?
If so, I would say that your desire really IS for God, NOT an Earthly relationship.

I guess the whole subject is summed up by something a friend reminded me of tonight: instead of running around trying to find a spouse, run towards God and look around every once in a while to see who's keeping up.